serious shit i cant ...

saya hanya tahu 'diam'
tak tahu bermain dengan kata kata
so , maaf kan lah saya
jika saya tersalah cakap .

saya hanya tahu 'ketawa'
tapi membuat jenaka di luar kemampuan saya
so , maafkan lah saya
jika diri ini membosankan .

tapi saya sudah memcuba
memerhati , meniru gelagat dia , kamu , dan mereka
tapi itu bukan saya
so , maafkan lah saya .

menghiburkan hati , dia yang mampu
merentasi sempadan , ia yang mampu
memimpin kawan , mereka yang mampu
mendiamkan diri , saya yang mampu

(fuckillicious)

confessions is the hardest part !

in your life , im just a minor character to u..everytime u bored and all alone , u need me as a machine to make u laugh..gosh ! u were happy when with me..then , i fall for u..i know it just dream that will never become reality .. i shouldnt dream like that..when u with your friends, u left me..i sit alone..i always remember when u told that u hold other boy's hand..that time , my atrium and ventricle stop beating.. i hurt..i know it just waste of time.. but everytime , i wish that u approach me , talk to me , and laugh with me .. i shouldnt wish like that because it actually hurt..

but in my life , u are the juliet although im not the romeo.. im stupid because hoping u will be mine..every fairytale have their own style , juliet have romeo..cinderella have the prince..emo boy got his emo girl.. coffee and cream..but me with ? no one.. i hope i never see , know , and feel u from the start..i know its hard to forget because u left me with this sweet memory.. and i wish i know what is serenade ? know what is lullaby ? ..so that i can make one for u..

my hope, my dream , my wish is nothing since i know that i will never get u...i know there's many sweet boy for u ..and i know they will do anything for u..and they love u more and more ,but i hate u more and more .. i say to myself " should i try to know u once again ? "
( fuckillicious !! )

fb : facebook bodoh !

first time buat fb - aku isi borang nya , tekan submit , laptop menjadi bengong dan terhenti seketika ( 30 minit ) ...mlm tu sudah berazam tak nak buat facebook lg..

second time buat fb (9/1/2010) - akibat desakan ali , jeman , dan hariz , aku berusaha buat facebook. aku buat facebook sebab nak main galactisco ( galak tikus ) . oleh itu , aku isi borang nya lagi sekali , di bawah kotak sign up , tertulis " please enter your full name " , babi ! sudah macam2 aku letak ! tak jadi . fundek ! lepas tu aku letak nama 'facebook suck ' akibat perasaan tak puas hati dan ie tertulis " it contains bla bla bla " fundek ! akhirnya , aku berjaya dengan nama *******(dirahsiakan) , lepas itu , aku memasukan perkataan yg dikenali captcha , dan ia tertulis " you waited so long to enter the captcha " , babi! , fundek ! dah ! aku give up !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

weird !

im starting to read ! oh gosh !
im starting to learn ! oh no !
this is not me ! oh shit ! :P
i know something worthless ! thats good !
this is perfect ! i got this new game !
and the game is how to bring myself down ! oh ! its easy !

scream its not enough to call the one back !
i knew that from the book call '' you'' !
"u the one who pulls me down" ! the book is right !
the book say " when u got no one , u got nothing to feel" ! im starting to think why ?
i trying to find the answer , but the book say " the answer is you "
im losing myself ! thats great !

i think joining the black parade is cool ! wow , thats totally awesome !
i see dead people dancing in the tv ! with deadly song !
but i dont want wasting my time just watching them ! i want be a part of them !
how ? i search the answer in the book call " you " again !
the answer is " sleep" ! huh ? i dont understand ?

i break the rule ! everyone say im the man ! woah !
i enter the discipline room ! everyone say " hey dude , you awesome !"
i spend my time with the girls ! the boys say " i dont want see you again "
so , i leave the girls ! the boys say " you loser !" huh ?

bodoh nya si joe ni.....

ia cuma mimpi atau ilusi atau khayalan .
dari tema yang di reka oleh seseorang .
yang menimbulkan persoalan dan pengajaran .
si pemimpi meniduri si bantal .
jari mengikut prosedur yg ditetapkan .
mengembara hingga ke hujung .
memeluk erat si mangsa .
mula membayangkan sesuatu khayalan .
yang di mulai dari pandangan gelap .
mata di pejam tanpa paksaan .
hati terbuka menerima khayalan .
menemani si pemimpi sepanjang malam .
menghiburkan si pemimpi yang malang .
kerana kehidupannya sangat tidak diingini oleh setiap manusia.

berdasarkan kisah benar :D..ahaha

hip hop

wawasan ku ,
hobi ku ,
gerak tari ku ,
mengikut mu ,

badan berentak ,
lagu menyentap ,
aksi mantap ,
memang top ,

hoppers ,
ber style ,
ada gaya ,
cool,

seluar londeh ,
boxer terlihat ,
terkejut ke ?
dengan snow cap NY,

gerak bersama alunan,
"lets go " kata ku
mula berdansa ,
putaran ku tiada tandingan,

dari bawah ,
ke atas ,
terlompat lompat ,
tangan mengikut rentak kaki ,

yeah !
b-boy itu aku,
masa dahulu ,
itu angan angan ku,

toot! habis ! ceritamat ! haha

creamer is sweet.

the truth is not so good,
they say me was stupid,
no more stupid action ,
that ashamed me anymore,

you always complain,
when i try to explain ,
n i wont stop falling,
untill you calling....
my name,

i really like you,
but i dont how to tell you,
n i realy like you,
buti dont how to tell you,

hold me close to take a picture,
we'll capture this moment ,
surreal , but i know,
this isnt a dream,

i spend my night,
just staring that light,
the one that so bright ,
oh alright,

n i go way up high,
past the sky ,
i grab a star ,
n put their twinkle in your eyes,

we so good together ,
like a coffee n cream ,
oh my god ,
my girl is sweet.

i miss you ,
from our little walk,
to our little talk ,
so i want you.

let me dial your number ,
or i die missing you,
if i knew u believe the word
n i pretty shocked if u say
'i love u' .