serious shit i cant ...

saya hanya tahu 'diam'
tak tahu bermain dengan kata kata
so , maaf kan lah saya
jika saya tersalah cakap .

saya hanya tahu 'ketawa'
tapi membuat jenaka di luar kemampuan saya
so , maafkan lah saya
jika diri ini membosankan .

tapi saya sudah memcuba
memerhati , meniru gelagat dia , kamu , dan mereka
tapi itu bukan saya
so , maafkan lah saya .

menghiburkan hati , dia yang mampu
merentasi sempadan , ia yang mampu
memimpin kawan , mereka yang mampu
mendiamkan diri , saya yang mampu

(fuckillicious)

confessions is the hardest part !

in your life , im just a minor character to u..everytime u bored and all alone , u need me as a machine to make u laugh..gosh ! u were happy when with me..then , i fall for u..i know it just dream that will never become reality .. i shouldnt dream like that..when u with your friends, u left me..i sit alone..i always remember when u told that u hold other boy's hand..that time , my atrium and ventricle stop beating.. i hurt..i know it just waste of time.. but everytime , i wish that u approach me , talk to me , and laugh with me .. i shouldnt wish like that because it actually hurt..

but in my life , u are the juliet although im not the romeo.. im stupid because hoping u will be mine..every fairytale have their own style , juliet have romeo..cinderella have the prince..emo boy got his emo girl.. coffee and cream..but me with ? no one.. i hope i never see , know , and feel u from the start..i know its hard to forget because u left me with this sweet memory.. and i wish i know what is serenade ? know what is lullaby ? ..so that i can make one for u..

my hope, my dream , my wish is nothing since i know that i will never get u...i know there's many sweet boy for u ..and i know they will do anything for u..and they love u more and more ,but i hate u more and more .. i say to myself " should i try to know u once again ? "
( fuckillicious !! )

fb : facebook bodoh !

first time buat fb - aku isi borang nya , tekan submit , laptop menjadi bengong dan terhenti seketika ( 30 minit ) ...mlm tu sudah berazam tak nak buat facebook lg..

second time buat fb (9/1/2010) - akibat desakan ali , jeman , dan hariz , aku berusaha buat facebook. aku buat facebook sebab nak main galactisco ( galak tikus ) . oleh itu , aku isi borang nya lagi sekali , di bawah kotak sign up , tertulis " please enter your full name " , babi ! sudah macam2 aku letak ! tak jadi . fundek ! lepas tu aku letak nama 'facebook suck ' akibat perasaan tak puas hati dan ie tertulis " it contains bla bla bla " fundek ! akhirnya , aku berjaya dengan nama *******(dirahsiakan) , lepas itu , aku memasukan perkataan yg dikenali captcha , dan ia tertulis " you waited so long to enter the captcha " , babi! , fundek ! dah ! aku give up !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!