confessions is the hardest part !

in your life , im just a minor character to u..everytime u bored and all alone , u need me as a machine to make u laugh..gosh ! u were happy when with me..then , i fall for u..i know it just dream that will never become reality .. i shouldnt dream like that..when u with your friends, u left me..i sit alone..i always remember when u told that u hold other boy's hand..that time , my atrium and ventricle stop beating.. i hurt..i know it just waste of time.. but everytime , i wish that u approach me , talk to me , and laugh with me .. i shouldnt wish like that because it actually hurt..

but in my life , u are the juliet although im not the romeo.. im stupid because hoping u will be mine..every fairytale have their own style , juliet have romeo..cinderella have the prince..emo boy got his emo girl.. coffee and cream..but me with ? no one.. i hope i never see , know , and feel u from the start..i know its hard to forget because u left me with this sweet memory.. and i wish i know what is serenade ? know what is lullaby ? ..so that i can make one for u..

my hope, my dream , my wish is nothing since i know that i will never get u...i know there's many sweet boy for u ..and i know they will do anything for u..and they love u more and more ,but i hate u more and more .. i say to myself " should i try to know u once again ? "
( fuckillicious !! )